ohms... metatation and headphones.

so today in applied tech everyone was being so IMMATURE about everything!!!!!! well they are adolecent boys, they cant help it. (no offence you guys)
well thanks so much for the tired evan warning, you were EXACTLY the same as you always were. o and why didnt you kick emma and me out of ur seat? it kindof worked, it almost guilt trapped me.

i sat at filippos table again at lunch, i DID NOT get hit by flying tuna soup. so laura A is stalking jacob and its hard to say know to her, you know, with the entire "special ed" thing no offence to her. so now its all kindof akward cause i guess filippos expecting to go trick or treating with me, bailey, barret, suhong, and someone else, idk. but i dont want to call anyone.... i hate calling people.

so overall life is like normal, as usual. chris seemed to be giving me the silent treatment through lunch but smiled at me once during spanish and talked to me during science. maybe thats how it always is but i just noticed it more today. i have excessive amounts of math homework due to the stuff i didnt do over the weekend. and then history reading, and re typing my essay (which should be fun). i had like 5 people edit it so my paper is a rainbow of colors. good metaphor... hahaha.

my moms not home cause my brother is at a friends house like every monday so she works late. i have soccer today and thursday, should be fun. finishing up holoween costume. this weekend me and allie e and megan v went on a bike ride through shorewood.. its so pretty in the fall.

look evan just signed on. ill talk to him.

RANDOM THOUGHT TIME!
so i feel a lot better than my previous emo entries, much more nikkiish. i should probably practice the piano.
not sure when my mom will be home, so cheating on computer time a bit. i hope shell be gone awhile.
i hope everyone had a good day (even though im sure you didnt, i mean we had school). im rather hungry.
i was going to say something... i think im going to modify the title of my blog. any ideas??

its all good, life i mean.

Nikki <3

ps. i put lots of spaces in my entries.. sorry. and the title of the post has NOTHING to do with this entrie. wow is that how you spell it?

im really sorry.

Ok so I guess everyone actually does read my blog; and so now everyone knows everything and nicos a non secret keeper and the only person im really not mad at is barret but Ik I should be I just don’t quite have a reason yet cause everyone just tells everyone all the thinks I try to keep quiet and now Yifan knows I have a blog? How? Andchris… chris! And idk what to think about him (sorry chris) and barret and nico I hate nico! And jonathan, jonathan, jonathan, he basically started all this so basically my life sucks and nothings good and it is allnot good and my cousins coming over for an undetermined amount of time which is slightly scary and I wish I could talk to someone, and say sorry, cause I really ruined everything for everyone, and instead of hating everyone else I should be hating myself cause instead of jonathan I actually started all of this and my parents just yell at me all the time and everyone reads my blog when actually I thought only evan or emma sometimes read it and its all not very good, is it, for me, you know?
Ok.

Call me I guess if you have questions. But my cousins going to be here. Idk
Visit
Well no
Idk
I wish I could go back to sleep.

the one below is a lotmore interesting, make sure to read both

i hope ur in a good mood.. you HAVE to get through this post. its important.

Ok, so basically im trusting myself that no one cept for evan actually occationally reads this blog.
Basically, I let everyone down, ihave a big mouth, im annoying, and everyone hates me and likes other people instead.
So the deal is chris liked me and now he likes someone else but he could be persuaded to like me but not? And then he doesn’t like me and then barret, barret! And it all sucks cause nico is telling people stuff and barret is telling people stuff and chris is telling people stuff and you cant keep secrets anymore, not even one. And so now bella knows chris likes her and shes not sposed to and I told her and barret knows but hes not sposed to (yet) and chris will probably kill me and ill NEVER get a chance with him not that I would ever anyways, not that I would have a chance with anyone, wow this is one long sentence. I really wish someone who could understand this was on IM and I want to watch the world series so I know whats all happening when I could just read the newspaper but that’s boring and it all sucks cause no one likes me (like that) and vivek hates me and it all just sucks!!!!!!
And im not sure if I like chris or not or barret or not or (you know who) (well evan) or not and none of them like me and everyone hates me cause I told mo that nico liked her, made her mad, is she mad at me? She never talks to me anymore, I don’t know anything, we used to all be best friends and now were all falling apart and I have to go to freaking costa rica and im scared no one will like me there and that’s prob. True and im scared no one will like me when I come back cause everyone likes Mo instead and chris doesn’t like me!!!!!!! But he sent me an email over his own free will that never happens, but it sort of does, but not really. And so now on Monday ill have no friends, as usual, and everyone will be mad and I hate louis and no one likes me!!!!!!!
And life sucks cause my stupid box and chris doesn’t like me and nico doesn’t like me and barret doesn’t like me and evan doesn’t like me and they all like mo instead who doesn’t like me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think but im not sure!
So overall im down on myself, not like emo, but cause everyone hates me and I wanted to keep secrets and its not working all im keeping is evan’s secret which sucks cause I don’t tell mo anything recentely cause shes avoiding me idk why! And evans blog just made me even more mad about life cause I kindof feel his pain only not really.
This is maybe my longest blog like ever and only one sentence. I almost wish I could go to school cause I have a sucky weekend planned and id rather go to school with people that I sometimes like.
So overall lifes like normal. Yay for me. Im a bad writer.

life, kindof

So today

Nothing happened

Yup.

6:28 mile, pretty exciting, my 7th grade friend (nick) actually congradulated me on it!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing particularly exciting has been happening. Really bored
Hw

Science articles

Survivor tonite. Not that it matters.
Life is ok. I kinda wish the dance was tomorrow.

times up!

Quickly, I only have 4 minutes left

But

Today was ok overall
Like evan, I have eleanor rigby stuck in my head

Over
And over
And over
And over
Again

But it was ok
Not good

But ok
And
Stupidmile is tomorrow
Sucks

Bad

This is a very

L
O
N
G
Article

Bye. Time for hw.

yippie

15 extra minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just got back from grocery shopping not really exciting

now im getting tired and illprob.go to bed at like 9. which iswhen ive been going tobed lately but still

stupid space key its not workign!

does anyone want to hang out tomorrow?well no one ever really checks thisblog anyways.

but w/e. good weekend kindof

layla

bro was playing layla all night now its stuck in head

finishing up hw

bored

sleepy


they canceled the dance

having some questions about who i like

(why did i say that?)
well i am.

bored, tired

play

So today was APT, and it wasn’t the best ever, cause it rained, but bus ride was on the best either I guess, sat kindof next to evan not really. Octayvia was being stupid and then bailey kept staring at evan and it was ok.

Now im really tired and hot and tired and ready to go to sleep but tomorrow we have a family reunion which should suck but maybe not.

So all is ok but not really.

*deep breaths.*

cyall Monday.

PS someone wrote a comment then deleted it.. do you know who that was??

pps: evan didnt wear the jeans like he promised. actually, prob a good thing cause otherwise bailey like would have been even more obsessed then usual

sigh

evan wore jeans again today

i liked these ones but i also liked the other ones better

fyi evan all the girls liked the other ones better

these were ok

(heehehe)

dance in oct. well the 19th. not sure what the plan is.

hw. lots of it.